glacier_elf

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Wed, 10 Jan 2007 05:01:57 GMT

I have let my lj family slip and I am here to apologize for it. I have missed this will promise to be here more in the future. I have sooo much to tell everyone and only hope I have not been written off. Unfortunately it will have to wait til tomorrow night since my job thinks I need to be there tomorrow morning. But I will leave you all with this. sometimes the dark places in our minds gives up the best ideas. Since I have been looking into the cobweb infested corners I have found so many new ideas. I only hope I get to use them before they float away.

Dentist hell

Sat, 06 Jan 2007 05:10:47 GMT

Damn it, damn it, why do I always have to be the one with all the wonderful teeth problems? Huh? I don't know but hey lets just be glad my hubbie has kick ass heath insurance, shall we. I am going to die I swear. I have broken bones, lived through a poison in my system and had several really bad fights but nothing is worse than this thing called a tooth ache. I'm sure you all can agree? It is worse than anything else around. I think if you believe in hell that is what it would be not the fire and brimstone, oh no, it's toothaches all around my friends.
Maybe if you want to torture someone you should loosen a tooth or two and make them chew gum! Yeah that would make them tell you everything. Maybe one day they will figure out why we always have to loose our teeth.
Enough about the teeth lets talk about my serious bitchy needs. I need to have my regular shows back now. I miss my Dean and Grey's. Damn the fall break what about what I want!! I'm important right? Ok, maybe to me anyway.

Thu, 04 Jan 2007 00:28:40 GMT

I have sooo had it with family. The holidays which are suppose to be about family could really be better without them. They whine all the time are never happy with anything they get and always want more.I mean really does anyone else see where any and all holiday's would be better without the endless family.
And new year's fuck I hate dealing with the sober people. Have a drink and chill guys. there is no reason to get so upset over everything. Do you have to dig apart everything. Seriously just let us enjoy our happy buzz and keep your mouth shut.

On a good note I went to the Shinedown show and it was amazing!!! Love them as always and the opening bands were wonderful too. Wish I had went to the new year's show.

Mon, 20 Nov 2006 16:57:14 GMT

Ok lets get back to the basics I really am tired of not bitching. I do it so well! There have been alot of things that have bothered me lately, Let's go ahead and start at the bottom. I have a new obsession, uh Peter steele and the type o negative band. But I guess I had forgotten how much people truely suck. Lots of things happen in everyones life sometimes good and sometimes really bad. Peter has had a bad, bad spell and lost abunch of people and things. He hasn't been well and just all around been getting the karma crunch. Anyway he is ten years older blah, blah, so these people felt the need to kick him while he's down. Why would he want to be out in public with jerks always saying such f***ked up shit?
Next if people don't stop with the crying and killing them selves at the holidays I promise to rip of there f***king heads so they won't have to bother me with there constant whinning. I am so over the "My life is over I can't go on" I say go ahead and kill yourself and save me the jail time.
And finally my sister if she isn't careful I will be an only child. She has been cranky lately , Lack of sex, fun, whatever. No just kidding she is good and thankfully she is with me. I just need someone to remind me how and why I am so mean, ok she keeps me out of trouble mostly. Sorry I was gone so long I promise to keep up on my bitching from now on.

Fri, 29 Sep 2006 04:41:51 GMT

Hello all my lovely people and stalkers! just kidding, so I have been horribly not in the mood to write anything. Does that make me a bitch! (god I hope so) You just can't ever get enough of a bitchy thing. I became a grandmother or have I already said that. That has been a real treat. Lots of sarcasm, I don't want to be a pain but really do you have to suck the life out of ever living thing. seriously My step monster is just the biggest pain in the ass every time she comes around everyone feels like they have been run over by a bus. Well everyone but her that is. My brother and is crazy wanna be a cop wife are at it again that's no big surprise really. I will be on later and continue the bitch fest. but until then remember to treat all the assholes in your life accordingly!!!!

Thu, 17 Aug 2006 13:08:59 GMT

I have been justly chastised. I haven't been updating lately sorry about that. Where to begin... I just don't know. There are lots of things I need to say. I have say that it is stange when you see someone that you know got you fired from your job and now they act as if you are best buddies. Sometimes I wish I could actually get away with pummling someone. He seems to think that trying to ruin me is ok. I just don't get it. But then karma steps in and makes things all better. The person in question looses there lady love and almost looses there house. I guess the Goddess does watch out for those she loves.

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 23:53:13 GMT

Ok so this entry is being done from my new laptop. yes I know that I told you guys days ago that I had gotten a new laptop but that one had to go back to the dealer. They were charging me double since I had to finance it with them. Yeah that was ruffly 2 grand, that jsut doesn't work for me since I just bought the same thing for a fraction of the price. I hate when people scam you or try.
Today is the day we also get ready for the baby! She goes to the hospital at 5 am to be induced. and we should have a baby sometime shorty there after. Wish me luck everybody.

Sat, 05 Aug 2006 05:28:04 GMT

The blissed sound of nothing. Is there ever enough quite time? I don't think so when you have 4 dogs and a husband who needs you every minute of every day. I watched two of my new favorite shows, NCIS, and The Unit. They are really man type shows but still with the cuteness you just have to watch. Dinner sucked(eventhough I was the one who cooked) Fish sticks, broccoli, and stewed tomatoes....Yummmm. Just not all at the same time.
I have to take back the laptop I am using tomorrow, but it's a good thing since I ordered a new one from Dell. I can't wait til they ship it to me and I can get to using it. My happy meter is going into over drive!!!! At this rate I won't be getting anything for christmas, there just won't be anything left for me to want. Thanks to my lovely sister I have fallen for the Veronica Mars show and feel like it is more crack and less want. The book has hit a wall (hard) Too much person shit to concentrate on the most important thing. Hate it but I have to close since I can barely see anymore.

Thu, 03 Aug 2006 12:22:42 GMT

There is alot to say today. But where do you start when your soap box is overflowing with ideas? The other day I ordered a computer online, which went fine. Then I decided to do a few last minute upgrades, what a mistake that was. I call the wonderful 800 number and somehow I am transported to India. Not really the problem until I try and resolve a problem. He doesn't understand me I don't understand him and he gets an attitude about it. MY bitch is I didn't ask to be transferred to someone who speaks broken English at best (it's not his or her first language) and then he's going 90miles and hour. The only thing I can understand is the price of my computer is going up. I ask him to slow down... He hangs up the phone. What the fuck!!! If our companies are going to lease out our business don't you think it would be a good idea to have the other company screen it's employees better. I don't have a problem with anyone with an accent but if your asked to slow down to help someone understand you how hard is it. Come on, really. It was almost bad enough to make me not want to buy the computer period. I know there are barriers everywhere unfortunately we have to break them down in order to work together.
I know that companies do this leasing program in order to save us money (yeah right). So I will log a complaint with the company (and get nowhere). One day there is going to be a bad enough problem where someone actually gets hurt over language or attitude. Then where will we be.

Mon, 31 Jul 2006 04:40:04 GMT

I have been pulled into the pit of crap this week! Unfortunately there is nothing good left. I missed doing a bunch of stuff I wanted to, well it was for a good cause. My brother is going through some crap in his life and I try hard to help without saying to much. His wife isn't the easiest person to love. You have to know when not to push people away. She doesn't think very much of family loyalty and to her dismay we do. Your family comes first whatever the cost. Which is how I end up here bitching! I have heard all the arguements about each other and there is always talk about a divorce but it never happens. This time though I think he might actually be serious. That in and of it's self scares me quite a bit. He stands to loose alot in a divorce and I hate to see him loose anything because he isn't happy. What else can you do except be there for them.

But my sister seems to be doing well, which makes me happy just the same. She is my closest and dearest friend on top of being my family. I wish I could find her someone who would make her happy. Even if it was only physically. She needs that in her life. I'm also still waiting to be a first time (and hopefully last) grandmother. Even though I am way to young to be a granny!!!! I guess I should stop bitching for now. I need to finish working on my book and actually get it out to a publisher so I have to close.

Thu, 27 Jul 2006 04:38:57 GMT

let's see if I can explain my mood. There is nothing I would like more than to see all people with bad attitude fall into a big hole that I have just filled with lighter fluid. That would make me feel soooo good. I am somewhat confused, I tell someone I will pay them for something when there other half agrees to my terms and yet a month later I sit here with nothing and her calling me asking about the money. Have I lost my touch? I truly hope not, that my friends would be a real bummer. So instead of wasting my breath I decided to sound off here where no one gives a damn and you are completely unknown to anyone. It gives a girl the warm fuzzys. Yeah right!!! Until the next installment I bid you a fond fair well.

Sun, 23 Jul 2006 04:49:10 GMT

Ahhh, my day is finally complete. I have just picked up my new laptop and feel free. I can continue going where ever I want and still be able to get to the writting thing! I know pen and paper work just as well, but there is something to be said for not having to chase all thoughs lovely scraps of paper around. And then having to figure out what they all say, Yeah like that is easy.
But I have to admit I haven't been all about the writing as of yet, we all have to play with the new toy! Other than getting my happy on there isn't anything else good going on lately. My life would double as a boring silent movie. That though isn't all bad either. Atleast now I can sit at my favorite place at the beach and fill page after page of wonderful thought!
Until next time my wonderful peps!

(now if that doesn't sound stupid I don't know what does)

Sun, 16 Jul 2006 02:43:14 GMT

Today I found out how many real friends I have. 2and that is mine personally. Thankfully my sister had asked a few of her friend to come to my step daughters baby shower or I would have only had two people there. Either I suck alot more than I thought or my choice in friends does. I have always tried to be a good friend but I obviously haven't been good enough.
I will close with a small memory I once held dear... I may be alone sometimes but I am never really alone. It's just harder to see my real friends.... since they all live in my head.

Mon, 10 Jul 2006 13:27:46 GMT

Ok. I just finished the lasted Anita book and there is nothing. I don't feel at all inspired as I always have through her other books. No plot lots of things happening and leading no where. this is horrible. I feel so open and wounded all at the same time.
Then there is the mess I call my work. I have missed something major. and now i have to go back and fix chapters of my work. Sometimes I could just scream. But what would that solve? Maybe I will make someones life hell that always cheers me right up.

Fri, 07 Jul 2006 06:11:23 GMT

This is to let everyone know I haven't fallen off the face of the earth, Yet!
I have just gone back to work and I haven't felt much like being in the groove. I have been trying also to finish the latest Laurell k Hamilton book. Yeah that's not going all that well. Has anybody else found it hard to get through and can you tell me what is missing? I love her main characters but she has let something slip and I feel alone and cold.
I really shouldn't bitch I haven't been keeping up with my writting lately either. but then again I am not as famous as she is. At least not yet!!!

Sun, 25 Jun 2006 06:48:01 GMT

Well, I am dragging my feet, officially. I guess it's because I am kind of scared. Never really felt that way before but the thought of rejection makes me a weee bit nervious. I have found a publisher I am interested in and now I need to send them a copy of my work. Only problem I don't really feel like reading a wonderful rejection letter just yet. Everyone tells me how good my stories are and all but personally I have read much better than me. Maybe I am a fraud or maybe everyone tells me my work is good so I will leave them alone. Who really knows? Hey I've got it I'm just a blabbering idiot who doesn't know when to stop bothering people with uninteresting stories. Yeah that must be it. The worst part of my week has finally hit me. I think I may be going through menopause. Only problem I think I may be just slightly ahead of schedule. I also need to make a doctor's appointment and have it checked out only thing is if it's true do I stop feeling like a girl? Am I going to be more like a guy? Yuck, I could just see it now all hairy and stinky always scratching and ohh that is just toooo much. I would rather jump off a bridge (killing many of the people I hate as well).

Ok, ok enough of this whinning, I hate whinners. Hehe! I just needed to get that off my chest and now I can continue acting as if this is all ok. Maybe I should take up drinking (no, I hate the smell) Oh well, I guess I will just have to live through it.

Tue, 20 Jun 2006 06:06:54 GMT

My wonderful husband has out done himself again. I just picked up my new car today!!!! I am bubbling over with joy. All I have to say is I am basking in the new car smell.... It's even better than a cigarette after sweaty sex!! Well, almost anyway.

Sun, 18 Jun 2006 23:50:41 GMT

Today I sit here on fathers day and wonder about, nothing that has to do with fathers!! I have received some great help on finding a publisher and I will be happy to report that I am close to actually getting done with my book. So I will be able to get on with more. Books that is. I have also been invaded by my step monster (hubbies daughter) Yeah just what I needed another mouth to feed and a pregnant hormonal bitch to boot. Sometimes I would just like to pull someones head off and make myself feel better bathing in there screams. If only.....

Ain't it the truth

Sun, 18 Jun 2006 04:47:19 GMT

You Are 56% Sociopath

You're not a sociopath, but you're very prone to antisocial behavior.
Other people's opinions matter little to you. You live your own fringe life - for better or worse.

Are You A Sociopath?

Fri, 16 Jun 2006 16:42:55 GMT

What to do, what to do. I sit here laugh and almost peeing my pants. The guy who moved two doors down let his dog out into the fenced in back yard think she wouldn't jump the fence. She jumped over into a yard with two pit bulls! I gotta love that thing called Karma. Anyway there is lots to be said for messing with a witch. All you have to do is wait and things fall into place.
On the other hand sometimes being a witch isn't all its cracked up to be. I haven't been having the best luck with the do my biddig you evil minions! I guess I have to come off more fire and brimstone or something. (now that was just a joke.) I already have plenty of minions!!!
I am still watching angel and I am hoping for a good night at staring at the wonderful (angel and wes) Yeah I finally decided the english twit from buffy couldn't be all that wimpy. He made it through having his throat slit and his friends leaving him for dead.

Wed, 14 Jun 2006 05:24:26 GMT

Here I go again with a new rant! I am tired of people who are my friends deciding that they don't do the right thing and blame me. I don't need friends like that and only wish I could find all this out before I waste several years of my time. Seriously if they do something behind there other halfs back and when they find out they are pissed. Why does it have to be my fault? Oh, I know the answer because it gets them out of trouble. If it wasn't for my sister being so good to me I would stop talking to people all together.
Then you have the rest who for some unknown reason think I make idle threats. Yeah all you have to do is talk to my family to know I have never made a statement or threat I didn't mean. some days I could just scream ***ouooheo0o*** there that felt better.
Now I can go to bed since I got all of this off my chest

No book love

Tue, 13 Jun 2006 03:59:51 GMT

I posted the first two chapters of my story and have gotten only one respose. I feel all icky inside. Why is it people will read the silly stuff but not the more serious? I really want everyone to read the story because I think LKH fans will get a kick out of it and I would like to know if there is anything to my family saying I am a talented writer.
Totally off subject the guy "Roy" is a real pain again. He has decided to try and work it out with me, only problem with that is I can't stand him and have no intrest in working anything out. He is a true dumb ass. I looked it up in the dictionary and his picture was there.... I swears!!!
I am watching Angel and loving it. I have made it to season 4 and I must say Wes is turning out to be quite a surprise this time.
Well, I will go for now, I must check on the minions

Icky men that need there eyes gouged out

Fri, 09 Jun 2006 17:12:03 GMT

New update! I have started cleaning up after the ass that used my guest room. Oh yeah I'm pissed! He has left my new (brand new expensive, pillow matress) a mess. There is a large brown spot where it should be white. He never made sure the sheet was secured and so his dog and the others would lay on it and make a mess out of it. There is black model paint on my white molding, the wooden blind in his window has been chewed on. Oh and he left me a nice mess in the hall where he let the little dog out of the kennel and it chewed a hole infront of the office door. My house is only 6 months old and I already have to replace several things. I don't think he will ever be allowed back in my house again. But in the 24hours he has been gone everything has calmed down quite a bit. The rest of the dogs are falling into a regular routine and the silent bliss is wonderful. I will never let another man live in my house other than my amazingly clean husband. And as a final note I will be able to get back to writing my book and posting the other here. So the wait will be over.

Anita Fic

Wed, 07 Jun 2006 00:30:11 GMT

For all of you who are interested in Laurell K. Hamilton's Anita Blake series take a look under the cut. After reading Incubus Dreams I just had have more- so I wrote it myself. Take a look- and FEED BACK IS APPRECIATED!

This is where I saw the characters going. There is so much going on at the end that you have to wonder where everyone stands. Does Richard change his ways? How will Anita deal with what she has made of her home life? Can Micah be as great as he sounds? How do you contain two Triumvirates without loosing yourself in the process? Join me with Anita and the boys, the story can only get better from here!

The phone rang waking me out of a deep sleep. I wasn't sure how many times it had rung or why neither of the boys had answered it. I rolled over and fumbled for the phone.
"Yeah,Anita here." I was trying to remember if there would be a reason for anybody calling me this early. What time was it anyway?
"Anita, did I wake you?" the voice on the other end of the line asked.
"Yes, who is this?" I asked while still trying to focus on the voice.
"It's me Zebrowski, don't you recognize my voice?" He questioned trying to sound hurt.
"Hey, what did you need?" I could feel this was not a social call.
"I need you down at the hospital." He said with a little hesitation.
"Murder scene?" I questioned but feeling something was really wrong with his tone.
"Not exactly, I think you should wait for more details until you get down here." He seemed to be acting more off than usual.
"Can't you just tell me now?" I could feel the pulse in my head starting to create a headache.
"No, just get down here before this is all over the news." He hung up before I could ask him anything else.
That is not like Zebrowski, there had to be something very wrong. I climbed out of bed wondering where Micah and Nathaniel were. They always answered the phone when I was sleeping. I walked out to the kitchen and found a note from Micah.

Anita,
We went to get some groceries and stuff. Be back in just a bit. Nathaniel said there is coffee ready to brew all you have to do is turn it on. Didn't want to wake you , you looked so peaceful.
We love you

I walked over to the coffee maker and turned it on. Thank goodness Nathaniel thinks of everything. I couldn't get over how quiet the house was with no one here but me. I jumped in the shower while the coffee finished brewing. With my hair up in a towel I poured myself a cup. I put it in a travel mug instead of my baby penguin cup since I knew I didn't have enough time to sit down and enjoy it. I hurried and combed my mass of curls throwing in some gel and pulled it into a loose ponytail. No fuss, no muss that's me.

CHAPTER 2

Once I arrived at the hospital the trick was figuring out where Zebrowski was. I decided that it would be smarter to just call him. I dialed and waited for him to pick up. He picked up on the first ring, as usual.
"Anita, where are you?" he sounded out of breath.
"Down in the lobby, you didn't tell me where you wanted me." I was hoping he wouldn't say the morgue.
"Fifth floor room 516, just tell Dannerson you are here to see me." He finished and hung up. He had learned that from Dolph. They never said goodbye, I was also starting to do that with everyone but Micah and Nathaniel.
I got on the elevator and headed to the fifth floor. I wasn't sure what reason they could have for needing me at the hospital. I usually never got called in unless someone was dead. Not unless they started keeping the bodies on a different floor.
Once off the elevator I knew which room it was because of the uniformed officer standing guard at the door.
"Marshal Blake to see Sergeant Zebrowski." I was using my official federal voice. How impressive!
"Wait here just a minute." The officer said. He stuck his head into the door and spoke to someone and then turned back to me. He didn't say anything just waved me past him and through the door.
Inside the room I could see several people around and the one that stood out was Louis. He was Richard's best friend and my best friends' one time boyfriend. My heart began to tighten in my chest. Thoughts were running through me and I just knew something had happened to one of them. My connection to Richard should have told me if it was him, but you know me. I never read the signs right. At that moment Louis turned around and his eyes went wide.
"Anita, I swear I was going to call you, but the cop over there," he jerked a thumb at Zerbrowski, "called you first." he said his face looked pale and unwell.
"Call me about what?" Everything started to slow down and I couldn't think. I concentrated on my breathing so I wouldn't pass out.
"It's Ronnie, she was found outside Guilty Pleasures. They think she was attacked or raped, maybe both." Louis's eyes filled with tears that threatened to fall if he blinked to much.
I pushed my way to the person in the bed. When I looked down at her she looked so frail, it was like looking at someone else. I reached down and touched her hand gently. She moaned and moved away a little.
"Ronnie, can you hear me?" I could feel my eyes burning with compassion for her. What had done this to her or who?
"What happened to her, who found her, do you have any suspects?" my voice was not my own and cracked a little at the end. Zebrowski held up his hands to stop me from continuing.
"We don't know who but we do know what. She was raped and whoever did this to her must have had a score to settle with her." He waited to see if I would interrupt but I didn't, for once.
"This is the most vicious attack I've seen in a long time." He motioned for me to follow him outside.
"Do you know of anyone who would have problem with your friend? This attack seemed rather personal." He waited for me to respond.
"I don't know. Everyone who knows her really likes her and the ones that don't, know very little about her." As I finished I tried to go over a mental log of anybody that would hate and came up empty.
"Stay with her today and if she tells you anything let me know." He turned away from me and started down the hall.
"Tell me something Zerbrowski. Why is the PRIT involved with a rape case?" I gave him suspicious eyes.
"There was a girl killed some time back and she had taken the same savage beating. Only she didn't make it and I was hoping maybe we could actually catch this person." he finished. I knew there was something else and wasn't sure why he was keeping me out of the loop. I hoped he talk to me later about it.
After everyone else had left Louis and I sat in the room waiting for Ronnie to wake up. I would have made small talk if I was any good at it, but I'm not so I didn't. The room was so quiet except for the air being blown out of the wall unit and the machine Ronnie was hooked up to.
I must have dozed off in the chair because I woke up to someone touching my knee and calling my name.
"Anita, are you alright?" It was Micah and he had a strange look on his face. I couldn't read it, but something told me either I was talking in my sleep or looked like shit again.
"When did you get here?" I asked leaning up to give him a chaste kiss.
"You were calling for someone and moaning in your sleep." He ignored my question. Calling someone. Oh, that is never good. But why not ask and see if it was really as bad as it sounded.
"Who was I calling?" My voice sounded innocent enough.
"Richard." Micah said flatly. He looked down when he said it and I knew at that moment that I had hurt him. How do you make something like that better? Was there really anyway to do that? Great, just great things are finally going smoothly and I have to go and fuck them up.
"Why would I call for him?" I tried for a little light humor, didn't work at all.
"I don't know. I have to go and take Nathaniel to work. Do you want me to come back after?" he asked. You could see nothing of the pain I knew he had to be feeling. His face was as inviting as ever. It was like nothing was wrong at all.
"Yes, but don't you have to work today?" I questioned.
"I got someone else to cover for me so I could be here for you if you need me." He was kneeling down so I didn't have to look up at him. I reached out and touched his face and he rubbed my hand lightly with his whiskered cheek. My body warmed at the touch of him. I kissed him lightly and wrapped my arms around his neck and smiled.
"Have you feed any of the hungers today?" he whispered against my ear. My heart fell, I had totally forgotten about any of the hungers.
"No." I glanced up into his eyes. How would I do something like that in a place like this. The whole place would be sure to hear it.
Micah smiled at me and in that moment I knew he could read me like a book. "We need to slip out and go somewhere soon before it becomes a problem." He leaned back still smiling
"Where could we...." He put a finger to my lips.
"I'll figure something out. " He stood with just that said. I was beginning to wonder what he was up to. He left the room and I looked around at some of the people that must have arrived while I was sleeping. Ronnie's parents had shown up and Louis was talking to them over in a corner. I stretched and Louis turned and smiled faintly at me.
"Finally awake? I hope we didn't wake you." His voice seemed strained and not like usual.
"Sorry, I didn't mean to fall asleep." I said with a rush of blood to my cheeks.
I moved to see if Ronnie had changed or woken up yet but I knew she hadn't. Her mother looked at me and I could see the pain in her eyes. I didn't want to look at that pain. Not with me sleeping while her daughter lay in the bed and the attacker out on the loose.
"I am sorry Mrs. Sims. If there is anything I can do or get for you let me know." I said meeting her sorrowful eyes.
"Just figure out who did this Anita, that's all I want." She leaned into Mr. Sims and started to sob quietly.

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This should work

Tue, 06 Jun 2006 05:19:06 GMT

I hear the humming of eternal bliss. I have had 2 count them 2 whole day's without the evil "Roy" to bother me while I watch Angel or anything else that needs no comment. There is something to be said for a asshole free zone. (hehe) ** evil laugh** I just have reach a point that I don't want others (people outside my family)around all of the time. They are messy when you make them explode.!!!!
I also have just realized,(don't laugh) Jeret Leto is the singer in thirty seconds to mars. Yeah behind on my gossip. Anyway I love the song The Kill. It's so pretty (yes I am joking.).
Side bar I need to start posting a continuation of Incubus dreams hope someone reads it. Ask my sister she says it's ok.
ta-ta for now