glacier_elf

I have let my lj family slip and I am here to apologize for it. I have missed this will promise to be here more in the future. I have sooo much to tell everyone and only hope I have not been written off. Unfortunately it will have to wait til tomorrow night since my job thinks I need to be there tomorrow morning. But I will leave you all with this. sometimes the dark places in our minds gives up the best ideas. Since I have been looking into the cobweb infested corners I have found so many new ideas. I only hope I get to use them before they float away.

Current Location: ahh bed.
Current Mood: artistic
Current Music: Black no.1

Damn it, damn it, why do I always have to be the one with all the wonderful teeth problems? Huh? I don't know but hey lets just be glad my hubbie has kick ass heath insurance, shall we. I am going to die I swear. I have broken bones, lived through a poison in my system and had several really bad fights but nothing is worse than this thing called a tooth ache. I'm sure you all can agree? It is worse than anything else around. I think if you believe in hell that is what it would be not the fire and brimstone, oh no, it's toothaches all around my friends.
Maybe if you want to torture someone you should loosen a tooth or two and make them chew gum! Yeah that would make them tell you everything. Maybe one day they will figure out why we always have to loose our teeth.
Enough about the teeth lets talk about my serious bitchy needs. I need to have my regular shows back now. I miss my Dean and Grey's. Damn the fall break what about what I want!! I'm important right? Ok, maybe to me anyway.

Current Mood: predatory
Current Music: no music, history channel

I have sooo had it with family. The holidays which are suppose to be about family could really be better without them. They whine all the time are never happy with anything they get and always want more.I mean really does anyone else see where any and all holiday's would be better without the endless family.
And new year's fuck I hate dealing with the sober people. Have a drink and chill guys. there is no reason to get so upset over everything. Do you have to dig apart everything. Seriously just let us enjoy our happy buzz and keep your mouth shut.

On a good note I went to the Shinedown show and it was amazing!!! Love them as always and the opening bands were wonderful too. Wish I had went to the new year's show.

Current Mood: bitchy
Current Music: all hallows' eve

Ok lets get back to the basics I really am tired of not bitching. I do it so well! There have been alot of things that have bothered me lately, Let's go ahead and start at the bottom. I have a new obsession, uh Peter steele and the type o negative band. But I guess I had forgotten how much people truely suck. Lots of things happen in everyones life sometimes good and sometimes really bad. Peter has had a bad, bad spell and lost abunch of people and things. He hasn't been well and just all around been getting the karma crunch. Anyway he is ten years older blah, blah, so these people felt the need to kick him while he's down. Why would he want to be out in public with jerks always saying such f***ked up shit?
Next if people don't stop with the crying and killing them selves at the holidays I promise to rip of there f***king heads so they won't have to bother me with there constant whinning. I am so over the "My life is over I can't go on" I say go ahead and kill yourself and save me the jail time.
And finally my sister if she isn't careful I will be an only child. She has been cranky lately , Lack of sex, fun, whatever. No just kidding she is good and thankfully she is with me. I just need someone to remind me how and why I am so mean, ok she keeps me out of trouble mostly. Sorry I was gone so long I promise to keep up on my bitching from now on.

Current Mood: Stop making me yell

Hello all my lovely people and stalkers! just kidding, so I have been horribly not in the mood to write anything. Does that make me a bitch! (god I hope so) You just can't ever get enough of a bitchy thing. I became a grandmother or have I already said that. That has been a real treat. Lots of sarcasm, I don't want to be a pain but really do you have to suck the life out of ever living thing. seriously My step monster is just the biggest pain in the ass every time she comes around everyone feels like they have been run over by a bus. Well everyone but her that is. My brother and is crazy wanna be a cop wife are at it again that's no big surprise really. I will be on later and continue the bitch fest. but until then remember to treat all the assholes in your life accordingly!!!!

Current Mood: yeah I'm an asshole sooo?
Current Music: none

I have been justly chastised. I haven't been updating lately sorry about that. Where to begin... I just don't know. There are lots of things I need to say. I have say that it is stange when you see someone that you know got you fired from your job and now they act as if you are best buddies. Sometimes I wish I could actually get away with pummling someone. He seems to think that trying to ruin me is ok. I just don't get it. But then karma steps in and makes things all better. The person in question looses there lady love and almost looses there house. I guess the Goddess does watch out for those she loves.

Current Mood: blah

Ok so this entry is being done from my new laptop. yes I know that I told you guys days ago that I had gotten a new laptop but that one had to go back to the dealer. They were charging me double since I had to finance it with them. Yeah that was ruffly 2 grand, that jsut doesn't work for me since I just bought the same thing for a fraction of the price. I hate when people scam you or try.
Today is the day we also get ready for the baby! She goes to the hospital at 5 am to be induced. and we should have a baby sometime shorty there after. Wish me luck everybody.

Current Mood: giddy simply giddy
Current Music: nothing watching Darma & greg

The blissed sound of nothing. Is there ever enough quite time? I don't think so when you have 4 dogs and a husband who needs you every minute of every day. I watched two of my new favorite shows, NCIS, and The Unit. They are really man type shows but still with the cuteness you just have to watch. Dinner sucked(eventhough I was the one who cooked) Fish sticks, broccoli, and stewed tomatoes....Yummmm. Just not all at the same time.
I have to take back the laptop I am using tomorrow, but it's a good thing since I ordered a new one from Dell. I can't wait til they ship it to me and I can get to using it. My happy meter is going into over drive!!!! At this rate I won't be getting anything for christmas, there just won't be anything left for me to want. Thanks to my lovely sister I have fallen for the Veronica Mars show and feel like it is more crack and less want. The book has hit a wall (hard) Too much person shit to concentrate on the most important thing. Hate it but I have to close since I can barely see anymore.

Current Mood: alittle pouty around the edges
Current Music: watching the profiler

There is alot to say today. But where do you start when your soap box is overflowing with ideas? The other day I ordered a computer online, which went fine. Then I decided to do a few last minute upgrades, what a mistake that was. I call the wonderful 800 number and somehow I am transported to India. Not really the problem until I try and resolve a problem. He doesn't understand me I don't understand him and he gets an attitude about it. MY bitch is I didn't ask to be transferred to someone who speaks broken English at best (it's not his or her first language) and then he's going 90miles and hour. The only thing I can understand is the price of my computer is going up. I ask him to slow down... He hangs up the phone. What the fuck!!! If our companies are going to lease out our business don't you think it would be a good idea to have the other company screen it's employees better. I don't have a problem with anyone with an accent but if your asked to slow down to help someone understand you how hard is it. Come on, really. It was almost bad enough to make me not want to buy the computer period. I know there are barriers everywhere unfortunately we have to break them down in order to work together.
I know that companies do this leasing program in order to save us money (yeah right). So I will log a complaint with the company (and get nowhere). One day there is going to be a bad enough problem where someone actually gets hurt over language or attitude. Then where will we be.

Current Mood: just pissed

I have been pulled into the pit of crap this week! Unfortunately there is nothing good left. I missed doing a bunch of stuff I wanted to, well it was for a good cause. My brother is going through some crap in his life and I try hard to help without saying to much. His wife isn't the easiest person to love. You have to know when not to push people away. She doesn't think very much of family loyalty and to her dismay we do. Your family comes first whatever the cost. Which is how I end up here bitching! I have heard all the arguements about each other and there is always talk about a divorce but it never happens. This time though I think he might actually be serious. That in and of it's self scares me quite a bit. He stands to loose alot in a divorce and I hate to see him loose anything because he isn't happy. What else can you do except be there for them.

But my sister seems to be doing well, which makes me happy just the same. She is my closest and dearest friend on top of being my family. I wish I could find her someone who would make her happy. Even if it was only physically. She needs that in her life. I'm also still waiting to be a first time (and hopefully last) grandmother. Even though I am way to young to be a granny!!!! I guess I should stop bitching for now. I need to finish working on my book and actually get it out to a publisher so I have to close.

Current Mood: feel my pain, PLEASE!!
Current Music: crazy bitch

let's see if I can explain my mood. There is nothing I would like more than to see all people with bad attitude fall into a big hole that I have just filled with lighter fluid. That would make me feel soooo good. I am somewhat confused, I tell someone I will pay them for something when there other half agrees to my terms and yet a month later I sit here with nothing and her calling me asking about the money. Have I lost my touch? I truly hope not, that my friends would be a real bummer. So instead of wasting my breath I decided to sound off here where no one gives a damn and you are completely unknown to anyone. It gives a girl the warm fuzzys. Yeah right!!! Until the next installment I bid you a fond fair well.

Current Mood: bitchy and a little angry

Ahhh, my day is finally complete. I have just picked up my new laptop and feel free. I can continue going where ever I want and still be able to get to the writting thing! I know pen and paper work just as well, but there is something to be said for not having to chase all thoughs lovely scraps of paper around. And then having to figure out what they all say, Yeah like that is easy.
But I have to admit I haven't been all about the writing as of yet, we all have to play with the new toy! Other than getting my happy on there isn't anything else good going on lately. My life would double as a boring silent movie. That though isn't all bad either. Atleast now I can sit at my favorite place at the beach and fill page after page of wonderful thought!
Until next time my wonderful peps!

(now if that doesn't sound stupid I don't know what does)

Current Mood: happy with a side of giddy

Today I found out how many real friends I have. 2and that is mine personally. Thankfully my sister had asked a few of her friend to come to my step daughters baby shower or I would have only had two people there. Either I suck alot more than I thought or my choice in friends does. I have always tried to be a good friend but I obviously haven't been good enough.
I will close with a small memory I once held dear... I may be alone sometimes but I am never really alone. It's just harder to see my real friends.... since they all live in my head.

Current Mood: anger with a side of pissed!

Ok. I just finished the lasted Anita book and there is nothing. I don't feel at all inspired as I always have through her other books. No plot lots of things happening and leading no where. this is horrible. I feel so open and wounded all at the same time.
Then there is the mess I call my work. I have missed something major. and now i have to go back and fix chapters of my work. Sometimes I could just scream. But what would that solve? Maybe I will make someones life hell that always cheers me right up.

Current Mood: crabby, cranky, bitchy

This is to let everyone know I haven't fallen off the face of the earth, Yet!
I have just gone back to work and I haven't felt much like being in the groove. I have been trying also to finish the latest Laurell k Hamilton book. Yeah that's not going all that well. Has anybody else found it hard to get through and can you tell me what is missing? I love her main characters but she has let something slip and I feel alone and cold.
I really shouldn't bitch I haven't been keeping up with my writting lately either. but then again I am not as famous as she is. At least not yet!!!

Current Mood: annoyed and let down

Well, I am dragging my feet, officially. I guess it's because I am kind of scared. Never really felt that way before but the thought of rejection makes me a weee bit nervious. I have found a publisher I am interested in and now I need to send them a copy of my work. Only problem I don't really feel like reading a wonderful rejection letter just yet. Everyone tells me how good my stories are and all but personally I have read much better than me. Maybe I am a fraud or maybe everyone tells me my work is good so I will leave them alone. Who really knows? Hey I've got it I'm just a blabbering idiot who doesn't know when to stop bothering people with uninteresting stories. Yeah that must be it. The worst part of my week has finally hit me. I think I may be going through menopause. Only problem I think I may be just slightly ahead of schedule. I also need to make a doctor's appointment and have it checked out only thing is if it's true do I stop feeling like a girl? Am I going to be more like a guy? Yuck, I could just see it now all hairy and stinky always scratching and ohh that is just toooo much. I would rather jump off a bridge (killing many of the people I hate as well).

Ok, ok enough of this whinning, I hate whinners. Hehe! I just needed to get that off my chest and now I can continue acting as if this is all ok. Maybe I should take up drinking (no, I hate the smell) Oh well, I guess I will just have to live through it.

Current Mood: crying (leeking)

My wonderful husband has out done himself again. I just picked up my new car today!!!! I am bubbling over with joy. All I have to say is I am basking in the new car smell.... It's even better than a cigarette after sweaty sex!! Well, almost anyway.

Current Mood: high

Today I sit here on fathers day and wonder about, nothing that has to do with fathers!! I have received some great help on finding a publisher and I will be happy to report that I am close to actually getting done with my book. So I will be able to get on with more. Books that is. I have also been invaded by my step monster (hubbies daughter) Yeah just what I needed another mouth to feed and a pregnant hormonal bitch to boot. Sometimes I would just like to pull someones head off and make myself feel better bathing in there screams. If only.....

Current Mood: cold

You Are 56% Sociopath

You're not a sociopath, but you're very prone to antisocial behavior. Other people's opinions matter little to you. You live your own fringe life - for better or worse.

Current Mood: Evil happiness

What to do, what to do. I sit here laugh and almost peeing my pants. The guy who moved two doors down let his dog out into the fenced in back yard think she wouldn't jump the fence. She jumped over into a yard with two pit bulls! I gotta love that thing called Karma. Anyway there is lots to be said for messing with a witch. All you have to do is wait and things fall into place.
On the other hand sometimes being a witch isn't all its cracked up to be. I haven't been having the best luck with the do my biddig you evil minions! I guess I have to come off more fire and brimstone or something. (now that was just a joke.) I already have plenty of minions!!!
I am still watching angel and I am hoping for a good night at staring at the wonderful (angel and wes) Yeah I finally decided the english twit from buffy couldn't be all that wimpy. He made it through having his throat slit and his friends leaving him for dead.

Current Mood: flirty
Current Music: Godsmack